Baby, It's cold outside.....

As I write this, I'm sitting here in the public library in nyc. And she is at work and I hope that she is

safe and warm. It's winter time and she is far away from me and it's February. I have had some good things happen and some bad things happen to me during this time of year. But this time in 2010, it's just cold outside. Where she lives there has been some snow fall and the last time that I "spoke" to her, it was online and she had a "snow day" from work. All of the time that spend together made the cold temps on both of our sides of the planet seem not so cold. I must have thought about her more than a few times a day. She has guided me and helped me when I had questions about matters of the head and the heart.  I have started school and I have the best time there just like I did last year when I took classes at SVA (School Of Visual Arts). And I was excited about that first class where I already knew the person that was teaching the class. I just want to thank her again for what she did for me, so I don't lose my place in my career of being film/video editor. I could hear how happy she was for me after I had called after the first class and the way that she calmed me down after I tried to the write the first paper that I have due in march. I was trying to write it all in one night. We try to talk online and lots of time on the phone. When I talk to her on the phone, I can see her there in front of me and she looks the way that I remember next to me when I was at her place in Nov of last year. I can see her eyes move back and forth as to study my face and file it away for the nights where she alone with thoughts and she might have just gotten off the phone with me. Or reading this right now. She loves to read books and I know that she was read  and re-read some of the words that I have written to her, for her and about her in the past. And even I have re-read some of the words that she sent me and I could her soft voice in my ears and the way that I feel after I have read something that she sent me. Everything inside of me matches the outside of me. One Very Big Smile. Just like the one that I have now on my face or when ever I play "Love Is The Answer" by Todd Rundgren. She played for me in her car and I could hear her softly sings parts of it & it made me smile then & all of the times that I have played since. I have found more things about her on my last visit to see her. I did not know that she liked hockey. And she says that there are only 2 hockey teams here in ny, but there are 3 teams and I have teased her that I would wear a jersey from the team that she does not like and she had told me that she would walk right past me if I was wearing it. There are levels to her that are uncharted by me. She is one of the best dates that I have had when she is online. All of the time that we have spent online have been some of the best dates that I have ever been on. And after she gone off-line, I have this feeling of being loved and wanted & very much desired by her. I have said this before and I will say it again. She Loves Me and I Love Her. I'm grateful for every day and every time that I get to say that to her. And every time that she has told me that in many forms, face to face, text message on my phone or during a online chat "date", it's like a kiss that lingers on the lips for hours after the last kiss good bye or the last kiss that I get from her when I'm lying next to her in bed.     Baby, It's Cold Outside....... xoxoxoxxxx (insert VBSH)  Love, Tiger

My 2009 in Words, Thoughts,Emotions and some pictures too!.

New Year's Eve- Long & Great Online Date, Alone, Sad, Happy, Silly, LMK-still very much in love with, Passion, Passion-filled, music, photos, pictures taken, Tears, Laughter, Tummmy!, Long wet kisses that linger, Her smile, Airports-Flights made and missed, No Delays, Window seats, Clouds, Horizons Endless, Flying on planes and on my skateboard, Maroon 5,  Snow/Ice. Bullshit, "Drama", No "Drama", 30 min lunches, WOS, K&D, Linda, Expedia, Sneakers, Naps,"Eye Rollers", 6 day workweeks, Reign of Terror, Pain Every Day, Other People Lazy, Depression Power Dives to Dark Thoughts, Missing Her, Crying at Night, Packing, Excitement,"Sleeps", JFK To MSP,"Baking",
A Big Lotta-ABL, Anger,Rage, Being Pissed Off, Security Lines, Lexus,"Get My Car",Weather 1200 miles away, Quiet, Noisy, "Message Sent Successfully", BackBeats, "Phone Sex", Bad Dreams, Laptop Stolen, Tips, Kevin Kline, Way Cool, Sarah Wallace-Tv Newsperson, In Her New Space, Sunsets,Gmail, My Pal "Crash", Good Meds, Jameson, Martinis, A Big Goofy Smile, Toshiba/Best Buy, "New Electronics Smell", Bored Out of Mind, Text Messages, Baseball Hats, Gray, Black, Blue, Green, Moonlight, Stars In The Sky, Looking For A Person To Help Me, Park Ave., Fill In The Blanks, Movies-Good,Bad,Downloaded, Software, JVC Camcorder, Facebook,  Found On, Aroma, Fairway, Chat, Long Walk In Rain, Rain Mixed With Tears, #1 Train, Kisses Goodnight Over The Phone, Lounge Pants, Snowfall, Smooth, "Velvet Lips", Big Hugs, Small Hugs, Disappearing Into The Crowds, One Last Kiss, First Kiss Hello, Not Wanting To Say Goodbye, Orgasms, Mirrors, Maker's Mark, Extra Cherry Juice, Cries In The Night, Lost Heart/Found Heart, "This Love", Turner Classic Movies, UPS Box, GooseBumps, Sweating, Showers, Bath Bombs, Warm Tiles, Spider, Haircuts, Sunroof Open, Dinner, Breakfast, Kettle Chips, Dill Dip, 5th Ave., Central Park West, Food, Ice Cream, Yummy!, Coffee, Peaceful, Traffic Road Construction, Too Fast, Early, Late, "Dina"/McCoy's, New Business Cards, New Dvds, Fasten Seat Belts, "Live Free Or Die Hard", Drink Cart, Water, Gate Number, Gum, Missing Her, Refill Fone, Blue Skies, AirTrain, MetroCard, Babies On Planes, Over-Sized Luggage, Flasbacks, Words On A Page, Gmail, Tear-Filled Phone Chats, To Hold Her Close To Me, Giggling Out Loud, People Who "Text" While Driving, Surprised Looks, Singing Loud & Off-Key, Traffic Lights, Hills,  Paved Streets, Bug Spray, Pizza, Intoxicating, Can't Sleep, REM State, Counting Days Since Last Touched Her, Hogging The Covers, Freddie Mercury, XR Bar,  Sam/Todd= Lone Wolf &Cub, Summer Movies, "Clones In The 'Hood", Chinese, Fast Food, Deli Food, Headache, Heartache, Nipples, "Wet Spots" "Move Over",  Head On Chest,  Heartbeats slowdown, "Make Out Sessions", "Aftershocks", "Afterglow", Hands above head,
"Having roller coaster hands in a car with a sunroof", Parking that car, Being "Cool" In a elevator, Frenzy of love and passion, Missing Each Others Bodies, "Making Out" in a parking 
garage, Sharing a giggle, Watching Her Sleep in the early am light, Holding Back a very big giggle, Food, Sex, Laughter, Magic, Wet, Dry, Very Dry, Bone Dry, Too Wet, Vodka, Vermouth, Bourbon, Toast, Orange Juice, "Irish Coffee", Comedy Central, Cool Crisp Sheets, Toothbrush, Lavender, Dance Mix, "Darling Fashion Never Sleeps/Fashion Remix", Polo Shirt, New Jeans, Crash and Burn, Post Office, Queen, Drinking Beer in a plastic cup w/ pinkie out, Divas, Drama Queen, Hipsters, Trying to hard, "It's all about me", "Entourages", "Twitter" "High Maintenance", Vain, Vanity, Being Alone in crowds of people, People talking at the same time,  "Me Talk Pretty", Coolness, Forever Cool, Photo ID, Glancing at mirror while talking in group of people, "Fake Hair", "Real or Fake", Yes No, Maybe, "Bite Me", "Blow Me", "Lip Service", Reality TV, Big Butts, Smoking, Jail Time, Perfect, Not Subtle, Subtle, Ring Tones,  Drink Tickets, "Texting in a club, bar, on the train, on the street", Photo Op, Having "Bored Out Of Mind Face" On as you walk through the door, No Service, "Newest App",  Upgrade, Serious, Lip Gloss, Lost, Found, "One Moment Please",  LCD or Plasma, "Black Friday",  Finally Here, Airfare, Stand, Sit, Big Handbags, Oprah, Ellen, Movie Trailers, Stoli, Bakers, Chats, Dialog, Conversations, Tasty, Delicious, Chicken Wings, Loud Conversations late at night, Windy, Drizzle, Surprises, In, Out, Straight, Gay, Bi, Pretzels, Peanuts, Communication, Please, Thank you, Sirens, Out Of Practice, Timing, Sandwich, Autographs, Website, Being There in The Moment, Not Dreaming, Dreaming, My First Professional Edit, 01:03:09:26, Big Smile, "Live Bait", Celebrate,  "To Dance......", " Makes Me Wonder" By Maroon 5, Editor-Terence Cobb, "The Story or a Story Told in the edits, Effects, "Makes Me Wonder", Pulse Racing, SVA, Nervous Excitement, Sweaty Palms, "Underwater", Slow Motion, Hearing Her Happiness In Her Voice For You, Sleepy Voice, Backrub, Comforting Her, Busy, Hectic, "Puddy Dog", Ripple, Mirror Effect, PDF, "E-Books",  The History Of Editing, "Bruce Wayne", "JVP", White Dress Shirt,  Hair In a "Pony Tail", Cool To The Touch, Texture, "Hockey Chick", Never Stop Talking, TV In HD, "The Wild", Star Light, Departure Time, Cymbal Crash, Practice, Drumsticks, Long Sleeve Jersey, Headphones, "Leopard Bra", 3rd Floor Of  The New York Public Library, Warmth Of The Sun, The Warmth Of Her Love, Doctor's Appts,  Being Yourself Everyday, Not Giving Other People Your Energy, Being Fired Over the phone, No reason given, Seeing Her in July, 30 days to wait, Film School Course Catalog, Final Cut Pro Version 7, Friday Nights, Phone calls made after class, Being excited all over again, "Gunsmoke" Edits, 3mins, Looked Forward to each lesson, Soaking it up, Other projects looked way cooler, Vince-(in my class and I will be in his in Jan.2010), JoJo (She taught the class), Robert-(his projects were always the best to watch for inspiration and the way coolness of them), Dorian, Arielle, Billy Squier's music on the way home from class, "Air Guitar", Feeling the breeze on your fingertips, It tickles, It feels excellent, Very Big Smile Here, "Mass Conformity", "Limited World View", Tailwinds, "Wind Chill Factor", Big Waves In Hawaii, Crowded Trains, "B&H Photo", Suzanne Lehman, Ralph Rucco, Neil Weinstock, Raccoon Lodge, Molly M, MMMMMMMM!, Seating together on the couch, Total silence, Headlines, Breaking News, No Interest,  Sunday Am fone chats w/Her, French Vanilla Coffee, Spaghetti Westerns, Hearing her voice on a sunday morning, Always wanting to know what she is wearing when I chat with her, Hearing her voice purring in my ear, Snuggling on the couch, Watching a movie on tv, Smelling her skin as I hold her close to me in my arms, Just hearing her laugh/Hold Back a giggle, "Alcohol- Is what makes white people dance"- (that was told to me while in a bar watching a football game), People walking upstairs/on the sidewalk "Texting", Busy Bookstores, Holiday Time in NYC, "Euro-Thrash" Tourists, "Out Of Town" Tourists, Ice Cold Bottle Of Beer slides down a bar in a waiting hand, To Her Laugh over the phone what a beautiful sound to hear, Long Distance Dates, Hearing Her smile, One of My Favorite People on the planet, Steel Grey skies, Glossy Magazine covers that reflect light,  The Year in Pictures, Hearing Her smile in every word that she has ever sent me, Sometimes Her Hugs give the feeling- I was always home and that is where I was supposed to be at regardless of the time or the place where we both were at.

She was the best meeting and was & will be always one of the best and coolest, brightest moments in my life.


                                                       Thank you so very much for everything
                                                        that you have shown me and given me and
                                                       shared with me during 2009.
                                                       LMK, "Thumper", "The Mistress Of The Blue Light"
                                                       "Blue" and Yes You too, JVP.


                                                     I Do Love You Very Much and will until you say stop.


                                                    Terence/ Terry, "Tiger"

It's Been More Than Two Years and........

More than two years and many,many,many moons ago. Two people would meet in a place called "New Jersey". These two people had an idea about the other and just a voice over the phone. And the voices were filled a nervous and yet playful tones. The boy made the girl laugh first and then she did the same to him. Each thought the other was different from the person that each of them had traveled to see the one person that connected the both of them. She saw him first and she made him laugh first again. And he saw her from a distance and then up close. And felt something inside telling him to take a "leap of faith" to wanted to know more about this person and why they were both there. The afternoon was filled with talking, drinks, food and many thoughts running through both their heads. The afternoon turned into night, he thought it would be another night filled with where he was playing the role of "bodyguard/friend/"cruise director" and it happen like that for a while. And a request for music was made and like always he had some with him on his laptop. He always had music with him in one shape or form. With Internet access, he went to the visual world that he loved and knew that it would keep him safe and protected from any kind of pain. Requests were made and he played the music he was told to. She was on the other side of the room and glanced at her and she made him laugh some more. She joined him at where he was sitting at and she searched through the world of visuals that he enjoyed so much and knew that he could always find something that would make him smile/laugh even when he did not want to. As she searched "the net", to find something to connect with him on another level other than the one that brought them to this place and time. She did and the connection was made and as they both knee led on the floor with the laptop that was sitting on the edge of the bed. The light that was coming from the lap top's screen filled their faces with a comfortable and familiar feel to the both of them. A request was made and he searched for the song in question and once it was found and another request was made. He played the "role of cruise director", but this time it was different he was told to dance with her and not the other the person that he would have danced with in the past. As they danced, he could feel that this person that he was dancing/holding was very,very different from anyone else that he held that close to him in a very,very,very long time. He felt her pulse, the way that her skin felt in his hands as he held her close to him. There was very nervous smile on his face the whole time and even moments before they touched. He felt "goose bumps" on her skin as they danced together. At that moment, he would have spent the rest of the night playing music and videos and talking with her. Another song was played and then it happened. They kissed. He liked that kiss. A lot. The taste of her lips on his, the way it felt on his lips. His heart was beating fast at that point. The fireworks started, the person that they were both there to see was very upset over what had happened between this two people. At that moment he hated himself and wanted to go home. The argument lasted late into the night. The pain that he had carried with him was back with vengeance. The argument was over and he sat there in the dark just writing how he felt on his laptop. He could not get her out his mind. As he sat there in the darkened room, he wanted to apologize for all of the trouble that he caused. He wanted to hold her again, to feel her being alive in his arms. He looked over at the bed where she was sleeping to see some sign that she might be awake so he take back and apologize for the trouble that he caused.He composed a e-mail message to her in that darkened room and he smiled at her in the dark. The next morning was quiet and there were some remnants of the argument and she was there looking so beautiful in the sunlight. A shower was the order for him, so he could pull "his cool mask" on and make his way back to his space and forget the parts of the "sleepover" that sucked and relive the parts that just plain rocked him. And another stolen moment and they kissed again. He was hungry the next day and not for food. Just her. The three of them packed and left the hotel room just before 1pm and two of us would never be the same way again. The drive to the airport was long and boring. As the traffic started to build in the summer afternoon,the conversation went from the front where she was sitting and the back seat where he was sitting and most of that time was spent looking of the window. But ever so often, she caught his gaze in the mirror that was on the sun visor. And he could feel her smile and he could see smile back. The goal of the drive was to get her to the airport. Once at the airport, they both got out and hugs and handshakes were exchanged. They both had time to kill, she had to wait for her flight to be called and he had find a way back to NY. More kisses were shared and he had hold in what he was feeling inside. As the sun made it way across the sky and the roar of planes leaving overhead, he did not want it end. But the walk back inside the airport, he took her hand and squeezed it gently and tightly. It was time for her to go and he wanted just one more kiss from her. He wanted this kiss to linger on both of there lips as they went their separate ways. He told her to stop for a moment, and as she did, he put his laptop bag down and took her face in his hands and kissed her one last time. He could feel her skin for the first time and kiss her the way that he wanted to when they kissed the first time. He taste her again and it lingered for a longer than the first one. She told him that she had to leave and he watched her walk through the security gate and then she was gone. He walked through the airport to find the restroom and get his cool together. There was a very big smile on his face and he walked back to the spot where they had shared one last kiss and he licked his lips to enjoy her kiss some more, they he made his way outside and waited for the bus to come. He had to wait for it come and she was on his mind all time that he had to wait. He played Ipod and put on a song on repeat and he danced and played "air guitar" until the bus came. The bus was cool and kind almost empty for a while and words that were in his head were poured into the laptop. He sat by the window and watched the clouds past by and the planes take off and head into the sky. He took pictures of the sky and the way that looked as he sat on the bus back into NY. He was missing her already. He looked at the business card that she had given him the day before a few times on the bus and stuck it back in his pocket to be close to her again. Once he was back in NY, he called her phone and just let a message. The noise that surrounded him as he walked to the train station made the quiet coolness of her miss her even more. The train ride back to my space was just me on the train and wondering where she was on the planet. I got off the train a stop before I get off at. The sun was setting and I took pictures of the sky, clouds, and what ever else caught my eye. I spent the time just hanging out and taking pictures and thoughts of her running through my mind for the rest of the night. The pics that I taken,were transferred to my laptop and I looked at them and smiled for rest of the night until I was too tired to stay awake. Even now as I look at those pictures that I took a that day and the day before, the same kind of smile is on my face.


Even as the last kiss that they shared faded from his lips, his thoughts about her filled his mind during the days and nights since he last saw her in front of him. These two people want to talk to each other and they did. It started small and just sending messages back and forth. They found a way to talk every night. So they sent messages back and forth, the number that were sent went from 100, then 300, 500 and then when it 1100, there was not stopping these two people that wanted to talk to each other. He found a space downtown a coffee shop that has free internet access and spent every night just talking to her. But there were times that he could "hear" sadness in her voice.
This friendship that started in Jersey, took a life on it's own. They both had felt something on that night in jersey and being able to talk with her was something that they both look forward to every night. He sent her pictures of the places that he would have liked to take her in ny. The nights that they spent online was their way of being together and sometimes those nights went way too fast. When the coffee shop closed for the night, he was very sad and very alone. The train ride back to his space took a long time. But that did not matter, because he got to spend some time with her.They wanted to see each other again. So when the idea of seeing each other again came up, it did matter where is was to him as long as they were in the same place. Choices of places came up and he picked a place where she would feel comfortable for her. Chicago was picked and she had friends there and so did he. A date was picked and the countdown was started and every day and every night that they talked brought them closer and closer to together. As the date got closer and all he could is most nights was smile. They played and laugh with each other online. He called her sometime and the distance just melted away. He even called at work and gave hiself a nickname " Bruce Wayne " so she would know that was him calling her. That was the nickname that she called him when they would talk online. She got the nickname of "Thumper" because she made his heart " thump " is his chest when she spoke to him. They spoke the night before they met and it was down to hours and he was very excited and so was she. The train ride to the airport that he made was filled with a nverous excitement. He had not felt this excited in a very long time. He took pictures of himself at the airport and spoke to her before her flight left. His flight was delayed 20 mins and it did not matter as long as it took off. He sat by the window and watched the clouds and scenery go by. Once the flight touched down and he called her on the phone and he quickly walked to where she was standing and there she was near the bottom of the escalator holding a sign that said "Bruce Wayne" and he started to laugh. There was a big hug and kiss on the lips briefly. As they walked outside and into the noise and breeze that was blowing, all he wanted is to be with her. And he was and very happy inside. The ride to hotel where they were staying was conversations filled with stuff to do, places to have dinner and talk about the friends that both of them knew in chicago. And they did kissed a few times and she put her head and his shoulder and lean back against him as if to say "so this what you feel like" and he felt her squeeze his hand just a bit tighter. She was still a bit nervous and a call was made back to her home to say that she got there ok. She did not a know a place near the hotel where they could get some food/drinks at, and once that was done there was the talking that they both enjoyed doing. The place that they found was very cool and very hip (local dive bar but did not have the ny feel to it and yet, if he lived there it would have become a place that he become a "regular" real fast). All of the time that the time they spent there, he did not let her go for more than instant. The bartender was female and had this "eastern-european" style to her and made feel very comfortable and very cool at the same time. They talked and kissed and held each other very close. The music that was playing on the jukebox just added to comfort level that they were both in. The walk back to the hotel was brief and yet filled with laughter and kissing. The elevator was fun and he could feel her whisper in his ear. Once back inside the hotel room, they were both nevrous and a bit tipsy ( He wasn't as much and she was.) They talked for a bt more and started to make out on the couch. It was getting late and she was still very nervous about being alone with him. He would have done any to make her happy. Just spending time with her is what he wanted to do. They were both getting tired and sleep was the thing to do. He slept on the top of the covers and held her so very close to him. Making love to her, was he wanted to do, but decided against unti she was ready. The next day was about just hanging out and meeting his/her friends. Calls were made and things where set in motion. His friend Nicky was called and he worked with her as porter/bartender in ny. When she got there, Nicky was very happy to see him and he was happy to see her. "Thumper" was a bit over whelmed by all of the energy that came out of Nicky. But that was because Nicky was very excited to see her pal again. As the drive to meet up with her husband started, "Thumper" started to relax and pointed out all of the places in the city where she and her huband could go. They were made to feel at home at this resturant where Nicky and her husband Mike worked at. She had a nervous smile on her face and she watched him interact with these people that knew him before she did. There many conversations about what they have been doing since the last time that saw each other. It was very cool and very fun for the both of them. Her friends (Karin and Mark) showed up later and she relaaxed even more and I got chat with her friends and hoped that they liked him. Her friends were very hip and very way cool and they have known her for a very long time. He was out of his league and was nervous about it and kept close to her, but not has close as he was the night before. Food/booze were had and music and laughter filled the space mixed in with background noise of the busy resturant. The drive back to the hotel was quiet and just plain cool and he want to take her in his arms and hold close and kiss her again. Once back in the room, they chatted for a bit. He took her in his arms and he felt again, that sense of her wanting him the same way that she she did back in NJ. But this time, it was very different. He could feel her body wanting and ready but it she had feelings that she still had to sort out about him. She was happy just to alone him again. As they went to sleep, he held her in his arms and kissed her forhead and he felt her make a "purring "kind of sound. She wanted to give him a tour of the places in chicago that she liked a lot. The Chicago Museum has this room of minatures and she loved that part so much, because it gave her a sense of peace and calm inside. She got to share this with him and it touched his heart so much. As they walked around the various rooms in the museum, the sense of peace that she had inside was so powerful, it did not take long for these two people to connect on yet another level. It had started thoughts of him to leave ny to be closer to her. And also in this time and place, he got a new nickname " Tiger ". He had many nicknames over the years and this one was so very comfortable and very cool at the same time. Her smile had changed a great deal from the time that they entered the museum and the time that they left it. They were outside and more pictures were taken of the things that were around them and some pictures were taken of him. He was nervous when those pictures were taken, because he was on the other side of the camera. He just stopped thinking and enjoyed her. Everytime that she got close to him, he felt her and he loved that feeling. Maybe he was falling in love wiith her. What ever it was he did not want it stop. The time that they spent together over the few days flew fast and he was in love with her. They went to Karin and Mark's place for chats,food/booze and just plain hanging out. And another of her friends came over too. Webber, that guy is a cross between a brother and the guy that you hanging because he is that cool. The conversations there were had went from living room, kitchen and the outside deck/porch. And the one thing that he noticed that she was so much way cooler that he thought she before now. And again there was another level to her and he still wanted to know even more about her. Her voice had a such a calming tone to it that is point and she could have said anything to her and would have came out like she was whispering in his ear. The drive back from Karin and Mark's place was filled with hand holding and watching the scenery that went past the windows. "Tiger" was very much into her. This time when they came back to the hotel there was passion and love and love making. " Tiger" got lost in her and the way that she looked at him. There was fear mixed with passion. The fear concerned him and he just stop what he was doing and just held her for the rest of the night. The next day was filled with some passion and getting ready to leave. He did not want let her go and yet his heart was breaking because he had upset her over what did not happen the night before. While they were packing, they talked and held each other close. She was crying and he watched her hold back the tears and talked some more.The cab ride to the airport, she was very quiet and crying very softly. He took pictures of the inside of the cab and out of the back window to get the skyline of the city. He stopped taking pictures to spent time with her. She told him that she was happy and did want to leave him either and that the time that she spent with him was some of best times that she had in a very long time.
Tiger wanted to give her something and he did. He gave a quarter from the state of Wyoming. It had a cowboy on a bucking horse stamped on it. He told her "As long as you hold this quarter in your hands, I will always be with you." He took that quarter and pressed it into the palm of her hand and closed and kissed her on the forehead and told her "you are leaking".(She Still Has That Quarter.)And she just leaned back into him just a bit deeper and pulled her closer and the rest of the ride was spent in silence. The noise of the planes taking off drowned out the things in his mind that he wanted to say to her. Once inside the airport, the crowds and the noise made it hard for them to talk like they did before. There was a few more pictures taken of them together and one last kiss and hug. She was crying a bit and her voice cracked once or twice and then it was time for her to leave. He stood there and watched got through the security gate and then she was gone. The walk to his flight took longer because he was missing her and he wanted to tell her " I Love You" and thank you liking me. The song that played on his Ipod was a classic song that he loved when he was younger and sang it his head over the year. But this time, he played for her. He played more than 60 or 70 times before he got back to ny. The "Travel Gods" played a rotten trick on him this time. His flight was delayed and that just made it harder for him. She was long gone and he was still in chicago with nowhere to go and just sit and wait for the flight to be called. So he did what
he usually does when he is pain/sad or sometimes just to get thoughts out of his head and where he could see them later. He wrote it down, and use his laptop as notebook. So there he was sitting on the floor poured what he was feeling and think into words, sentences and so forth. When they called his flight, he was still playing the same song that he was playing when he said good bye to her. Once he was the plane, he would on his way back to ny and again the "Travel gods" were not done. The plane sat on the runway and he watched planes go past and the sun start to set. He was relaxed and took pictures to keep his mind busy and tried not think about her. But that is all he did, all of the pictures that he took, he would share with her via e-mailed messages. When the plane did take off, he looked at his watch and figured out that she was already home while he was still in the air. The sunset looked great and something that he would do is take pictures of sunsets from now on and would share them with her. By the time that he back to ny, it was very late and even later by the time that he got back to his space. He spent the next day missing her and looking at the pictures that he taken on his laptop and all of them made smile in one way or another.

1275 was the number that was reached in record time. "Tiger" and "Thumper" talked every night. seven days a week for a few hours just about every night. Monday to Friday night where time flew by very fast and they did want to say good night. Every night that Tiger left the coffee shop, it was hard for him and the trian ride back to his space was long and that included just waiting for the train to come. He walked past a bar in the city on his way to the train station and he was feeling laone and wanted to just be around people. And one night he walked and just watched people being to together. And over time, he got know people there and it became a place for him to fit in and just be cool. And sometimes, Tiger would tell Thumper that is where he would be going after the coffee shop closed and have a few drinks. She always told him to be careful and have fun. Some nights are being with her, he wished that she was there next to him and being together. And once he found that the bar was wired for "wi-fi", then he told her that he would like to have a late night date. And they did. He would sit at the bar and she would be sitting at home. And they would be there together iin there own way. Thiis would be ok for the both of them for rest of the year. 2007 just about over and 2008 was starting and the idea of getting together again came up and he just said yes. It did not make a difference where it was as long as he could be with her. Chicago was suggested again. Plans were made and the countdown was started, but this time was different, Thumper told Tiger the story about one of her nephews would keep count on trips that he made.
"Sleeps" was started and that is how him and her counted down until they would see each other again. Chicago was much colder than ny, at that time of year. He got there first and waited for her to meet him at bagage claim, he was very calm this time and very excited. He played music and pased back and forth with one eye on the clock and one eye on arriving flights. He heard that her fllight had just landed and his mouth was dry and had a excited smile on his face. He watched the people get off the plane and the in crowds he spotted her. It was magic all over again, he tried to act cool, but inside he was just very, very happy to see her. There was a kiss and hug shared and talking about each was very happy to see the other again. As they waited for a cab, to come they kissed this time and they way that he loves to kiss her, with his hands on her face. She was giddy with excitement. and he loved it. This time they stayed at hotel that was in the middle of everything. Stores, shops and places to eat. They spend the first few hours making out and making love, before they decided to go outside. Where they went, it has great. He took pictures the places that they went. And there were times that she was very quiet. They had an argument and he decided to give her some space. so he took a walk. A very long walk to clear his head. And just to give her some alone time.Tiger walked to the resturant where Nicky and Mikey worked at and they were not there. So he walked back to hotel. By the time that he got back to the hotel it was dark outside and very cold. And so was he. He told a hot bath to warm up because he had a slight case of hypothemia and he was shaking to get warm. And then it happened. Thumper told him that she could not see him anymore and maybe they could still be friends but no talk of romance at all. That night they both cried. And rest of the night was spend him holding her and hating himself again. The next morning was spent talking and just being together as friends and nothing else. The cab ride was much colder this time and kind of quiet. As they walked through the airport, he was sad and could not show her. They talked for a bit before her flight was ready to leave and he took two last pictures of her and she said that wanted to walk to the gate alone and he watched walk away. Once she got on line, he told her to "Stay Loose, Killer" and "flashed" her. That made her laugh one more time and he was gone. Tiger disappeared into the crowds of people and he played his Ipod as the tears streamed down his face. The walk to catch his flight was long and still had 20 mintues to wait. The " Travel Gods" had tricks up their sleeves for Tiger. An Announcement was made that Tiger's flight was delayed. "Oh Great, I get my heart broken and I can't get out of Dodge fast enough." Almost two hours later and the flight was ready to leave. The flight back to Ny was hard on Tiger. All of the thoughts that he had, were about her. The days and the nights were hard. He hated himself for falling love. There was a period of time that they did not talk and then "took a leap of faith" and talked to her. Just sent a message. And she replied back and there was things said and he worked through his pain. Fast Forward to April 2008, they are talking again and spending time together online. And she told him, that she was thinking about changing her life. And that she might be coming to Ny in May for work and to see him again.And there was something that she told him that rocked his world. That she was in love with him. Tiger was floored by this. He asked Thumper if she was sure about it. She said that she was very sure about her decision. He had missed her very much. Plans were set in motion.She said that she might be in town sometime very close to Tiger's birthday. That would be so great for that to happen. And she was in ny a few days before Tiger's birthday. She asked him to spend time with him at one of the world's most famous hotels that was in ny. She got there before he did and he was nevrous about seeing her again. And yet in his heart it was telling that is was ok. With each step that he took, there was a big smile on his face. And when she open that door, all of the feeling that he about her came rushing back. To feel her again, the feeling of her skin under his fingers did a more than a few things to his body, The first night was spent hold each other close and tender kisses where changed. Later during the night, the urge that she wanted to make love to her was in full effect. But he waited until the next morning and then the two of them went at like lovers reunited Their passion turned into pure out lust. The love making session went on for more than two hours and when they were done, they held each other very close. Just going to the bathroom, he missed her. And they talked about what they have been up to since the last time that they were in same place. Tiger told her that he was looking for another job besides working as porter a bar. She was happy about that. All of the time that she was here, he did not want to let her go. And the day before that she had to leave, he got a phone call from one of the places that he had sent his resume to. He had a interview on May 16 the day before his birthday. When she left this time, there were no tears, but a big smile on his face. This time he watched walk through the crowds on people online until she could not see her any more. He took pictures. The ride back in the city was quiet for bit and got very noise as the bus got closer to the city. Once back in his space, he enjoyed the quiet and just stared of into space and thoughts of her being back in his life filled his mind. Tiger got the job and he told her first. She was very happy about that. She had a bit of news to tell him also that she would be back in ny sometime in August for a trade show and woiuld he like to spent time with her. He did not think about it at all. All he said was yes. And he said that he would show her all of the places that told her about in all of the chats that they did online every night. As the days got closer to the night that she would get to ny, there was a smile on her face and he had that same smile. Tiger went to work and took his gear with him because they would be together. He got out of work early and the "Travel Gods" when to work. Her flight was delayed due to the weather. Tiger was very anxious to see her again. Going back to his space was out of the question.So he went downtown to XR Bar, a place where they had many late night dates online and a place that he would take her to. Tiger had to relax, the night went on and it got later much later than she said that she would be in ny. Each time that his phone rang, it was her saying that she was sorry that she was so late. Tiger did not mind as long as she was still coming to ny. She asked him to call the hotel and tell them that she would be there much later that she said that she would be there. When she called again and told him that she had gotten of the plane and was on her way to the hotel, he move very quickly. And he got there before she did and he watched her and the person that she worked with walked into the hotel. It he was very happy when he saw her again. The elevator ride was smooth, but kind of slow and because of the hour theny were very quiet. Once inside the room, they talked and put their stuff away and then kissing started and just being together again was just cool. They spent the rest of the night, sleeping and hold each other very close. He had the day off from one job and had to take care of the other but would be back to spend the rest of the day with her. The smile that was on his face never left at all. They were two people in love and seeing the sights of the city. The nights were a totally different thing, she was busy with the trade show and he was busy with his job. For the time that they were together, it was like they were living together. Tiger took pictures of her and they are some of his favorite pictures. Even now, more than a year later since they were taken. On this trip, he did say good bye to her at the airport, because she was not by herself. He left the hotel and grabbed a cab and headed back to his space. He called back to say thank you for all of the fun and great time that they had together. As the cab drove through the early morning sun, he was filled with thoughts of her. Once he got back to his space, Tiger uploaded the pictures that he had taken all of the both of them and places that they went together. They made him smile and lost in his thoughts as he got ready for another day of work. He know that she would home before he was done with work, and might not hear from her. It was ok. When they did talk online later in the week, they talked about how they missed each other and how she still "tingled" on parts of her body. That brought the smile that was already on his face just a bit bigger. Tiger sent her pictures of the places that they went to while she was in ny. The rest of time that they talked every was filled with love, passion, sex. Lots of talking about sex. Just before thanksgiving while they online spending time with each other. Tiger could feel that there was something wrong with her. Thumper had decided to change her life and where she was living. She was not happy for a long time before she met me and did not want to be that way any more. He wanted to help in anyway that he could and all she said was "Just Love Me", he said back in a kind of sassy voice (to make her smile ) "that's all give me something hard like long division with a head cold. He heard her laugh. And that she would be looking for a place sometime after the start of the new year. He knew that she was "leaking" (crying) and he just wanted to be there for her. The holidays rolled around and he was busy at work and so was she. And they did talk just so they would not be alone. Tiger got invited to a new year's eve party and had fun and wondered where she was and whet she was doing. The party went on until most or all of the guests had gone and he was still very much awake. Tiger sent a message to Thumper and thought that she was sleeping and found out that she was very much awake and they spent the next few hours chatting online, that was one of the best times that had spent together. He enjoyed all of the time that they had spent together on the new year's day. The time did not matter to either of them. Morning became afternoon and then early evening and they just typed back and forth what they would have been doing if they were in the same place. She was tired and so was he. They said good night to each other and wanted be with each other at that moment. Work was slowing down from the holiday season and he was kind of sad. Some of the people at his job were boring and jealous of Tiger. Because he learned everything very fast and the manager liked him and some of the other folks that worked there did to. But Tiger would get a bit of news that would make him smile again. Thumper had moved out of her space and got
a new space that she could just be at. Tiger was very happy for her. A few weeks went by and Thumper wanted to know if Tiger could come out and see her in the new space. He would go anyplace that she wanted him to. "The sleeps" countdown was started. They talked about what it was like for her to be there and the cool places that were near her and that they could go together. He wanted her. It was cold and not windy there and there was bright sunshine, he walked to where she was going to be in her car and once outside the airport, he looked for her car and quickly said hello. He was nervous all over again and did not say very much and looked at her and how she looked back at him. The ride to her space went kind of fast and she just talked about work and his job and how she was to be with him again. He had a nervous smile and wanted to take her in his arms and hold and squeeze her very close to him. Her space has lots of light and a nice view and not a tall building around her so the sunsets would be natural and relaxing. They did spend some time talking and hanging out and other times making love and fucking each others brains out. Their passion/lust for each other was long overdue and they knew it. He took pictures of everything so he could smile back them later when he was back in ny. He did not get the chance to give her the same kiss that he love to give her, but would make up for it the next time that he would see her. He would come back to ny, and would and did miss her so much that it hurt. He was sad while he was at work and would feel better once he got a way from it. Tiger told this fact to Thumper. But it was ok and he was better when we was talking with her. Winter came and went and they loved each other very much. Spring came and Thumper wanted to know if Tiger was doing anything for his birthday. Nope just work and maybe hanging out around the city. She had idea since they birthdays were very close to each other why does Tiger come out to see Thumper. It was a great idea and things were up and rolling, this time the "sleeps" count was much lower and he got excited each day that it got closer of his flight to leave. There was a very big smile on his face as he walked to his flight. This time it was not cold and very nice all of the time that he was there. He could not wait to see her and make love/have sex with her again. I'm very much in love with her, because I'm Tiger and She is and it always be Thumper. And all of these words and pictures are for her and I to share. And if you are lucky enough to read this, you should know that this is not the end of this story, but the end of this blog entry. Thank you for two years and many, many, many moons ago.