June,22.2009 2:30pm.
It's been a month and a few days since I last saw her face. As I waited on line to go through the security gate, I watched her disappear into the late afternoon/early evening crowds at the airport. I just wanted one more kiss, one more taste of her soft skin as I gently bite her. All of the pictures that I have taken while I was with her are still in my camera. But the pictures that I have in my mind are much sharper and softer. All of the time that we shared have made me smile even more when I talk to her on the phone. The chats that we have had since I last saw her face have given me goose bumps, very big smiles that fade hours after I have said goodnight to her. Even now as I write this these words, I can see her smiling at me in the way that she has so many times before. I can hear her smile at me. To be able to do that gives me joy and a sense of love that she has for me. The distance that is between us fades to nothing when I get to hear her smile. The days that passed since I got lost in her are just filled with chats with me and the days at work are forgettable and the are cause of the bouts of depression that I have while I'm here at work. I get to hear about her day at work or just her talk to me about what is happening on her side of the planet. I have told her that she is the last person that I talk to before I get to my space. Ordering food is just that and nothing more. I have gotten take-out food and have sat outside and just talked to her. When I had started this was a more than a month ago. Here it is August and I have totally forgot that I had started this. A lot has happened to me since I was here last. I got fired from the place where I was working at. Over the phone and not face to face. Doing it that way, is the way of a person that could not face me to do it. So it happened to me and it was done a person that I respected and would do anything for just to get it done. That really screwed me up and yes, I did cry not alone, but out in public and over the phone to her. Yes, I was crying. I had to head somewhere to think. So I went to library for some peace and quiet and to think before I headed back to my space. I hated where I worked for many reasons. and then there were times where I liked going to work because of the people that I worked with. But getting back to this blog. All of the times that I had spent with her in her space, I forget about time, hell I did not wear a watch for all of the time that I was there with her. My inner clock was still on NY time. So I would say good night to her when she went to bed. and I would see who she was doing and I would rub her back and taste her lips on mine as she would kiss me before I would go back and just hangout. I loved to kiss her before she went to sleep. I could see her smile just a slight bit as she could feel my lips on her. And sometimes she would almost make a purring kind of sound, I feel her taste on my lips as I would drift off to sleep. While I was in her space, I took lots of pics. A few pics of the view of her window and what I saw from there. The setting sun at different times and a few sunrises. And few pics of her sleeping. Just seeing them again a few weeks later still gives me goose bumps. I have loaded them on my laptop and have made very corrects on them. I can feel her when I looked at the pics a few days ago (July 30). And even now the pictures that I have taken of her in the past come up as screen savers and sometimes I get the surprise of looking at her face and I have smile to myself a very big smile and I can feel the goose bumps start at the base of my spine and I get a shiver. That is what happens to me when I see her face. She had done this to me every time that I see her face. Even after I had said goodbye to her the day after we had met and after the last kiss that I thought I would ever give to her in New Jersey at the gate before she went through the security line. Mmmmmmmmmm.
Can't wait until the next time that I get to see her face...... (To be Continued....)
