The Summer Of 2009 is...

The Summer of 2009 is into August as I write this. And I was looking forward another summer of looking at the same dead faces as I went to work everyday (six days a week), the same bad jokes and the same things said by the same people and "surfing" on my lunch hour to break the chain of being over worked and having to fit six days of doing what I wanted to do into one day. Yes, Sunday was my one day off. But before this summer started a got to spend some time with Her. Yes Her, the one person who can make me forget my name with a kiss and and get all sorts of things started with my body. I got the chance to do that, the days leading to and after my birthday. It was all sorts of coolness as the days got closer and closer. I told the powers that be where I worked at. That I would be gone for a few days. So I was on a plane and headed to her. And there she was at the airport with a smile that was and is big as all get out. I took some pics while I was at her space. (I took a lot and some of them did not come as I wanted in the last last Blog (To See Her Face... so I will add them here.) The last few weeks have been hard and yet there some days where I was so relaxed that I would and did fall sleep in my space. Just to walk past a Liquor store and see the wines that they have on display makes me laugh out loud. I was worried about money and that effected my dreams when I would take naps. And even that resolved itself. So here it August and I have been busy. The Movie that I did a few years ago has been re-done with music and sound effects. And It currently on YouTube (Darling, Fashion Remix 2009) and I have some ideas with films that I want to make while I'm on my summer vacation. And movies that I want to see. She has not been feeling well and I have sent her messages via g-mail. But I have start to make plans do stuff for the fall of 2009. She is a big part of it. I want to love her and maybe see her one more time before the weather changes. She has read the last blog that I sent her. (To See Her Face...) was something that she really liked to read. I could hear her smile from here. And what a great smile that she has. My life this summer was and is very interesting. I have gone to the movies for the past few weeks and yet my ideas about the movies that I will make are very strong and clear and I will start them by the ned of the month. Just hearing her voice in my head right now gives me a case of goose bumps despite the fact the ac is on here at the library where I have been sitting just about everyday since I left the "WOS" (my former job). I sit here and watch stuff on youtube and study edits and editing on the 'net. I have been working towards my goal for being a film or video editor. And I like I said I should have all the gear that I need by or before the end of August. I have a trial version of the editing software and I have tried it a few times and it feels good. I have spent time on my 'board and have "flown" all over the city to places where I wanted to be at. I spend hours at the library just watching video clips on you tube and have watched tutorials on the editing software that I will use in the future. One of the things that I wanted to do this year is get into The School of Visual Arts and I did get in. And I called her to tell her and I heard her cry over the phone and as I stood there on corner near the school and I wanted to be there with her. Her tears cut through me like a knife and I wanted to cry right then and there. And I for a bit and a tear or two rolled down my face. The sun was shining that day and I was filled thoughts of her. I was very happy that I got to share this very good thing with her. I spent this summer trying to re-connect with me. I forgot who I was. I was working six days a week and more than 55 plus hour weeks and had to squeeze a day of living into a one day. As I write this now, it sept. 2009. I have found her sounding better and I could feel her smile back on her face as I have spoken to her over the past few days. I thought that she would not come back and I felt alone again in the world. I hated that I could not help her and I would not hear from her for days. I sent her messages just about every day and I poured my heart into every message that I sent her. How ever brief the message, I would sent it. I always hope that when she read it that she would smile through the tears that she was shedding. I could hear her tears every night and I would miss her even more. But I never gave up on how I felt about her and how much I loved and desired her in my life. It took me a long time to find someone like her. As two years that we have been in love with her is coming soon and I already have a small gift for her. From the time that we first met and until now seems like a lifetime ago. So much has gone on since then. There were tears, laughter, bouts of sadness on both side of the planet, countless emails that were sent. Phone calls, texts that were sent even when she was on vacation. When I would get those and I would be so happy that I smile so big that my face would hurt. I would read them a few times after I got them and I would smile all over again. Each one came and I could feel her love for me. We were in same time zone and we would share a smile and a giggle. She could always fine a way to make me laugh. The distance that is between us, it just goes away. I love to her talk to me about her day and what she did. Her smile gives me a warm feeling inside. From the first time that I saw it. Even now, to see her smile.......